God is really faithful in helping me deal with these feelings for -p. i asked God to just help me to be more obedient to His timing and not to get myself all overexcited over my emotions and affections for him. He’s really teaching me how to be reasonable in romance and to wait for -p’s leading. i want to follow God’s ideal plan of courtship, and that must mean to wait until -p gets the go from God. 🙂 it’s somewhat new. but i’ve always told myself that God’s best won’t be like the rest. i will treat this with utmost respect and seriousness knowing in the end, our testimony will be one that gives glory to God. wow. am so excited. (*this was on private but i decided to post it publicly)