I’m gonna go ahead and maximize on the use of substitution to get across a very funny conversation I had with Zi without being too obscene. I’m gonna need my readers to have a really good imagination as to what “Oh Lord, Really? Why?!” is…so go ahead and take some time to ponder what that is for a bit. Zi: Mama, do you still have a “Oh Lord, Really? why?!” ? Me: ummm…what the, why?? Zi: Because Lola said that when you get older, you lose your “Oh Lord, Really? Why?!” . Me: What in the world?! Zi: Does Lola still have her “Oh Lord, Really? Why?!” ?? Me: According to Lola, no. ———— Thanks for coming, folks! Until next time.
This morning, during breakfast, as I was having a conversation w/Emma about slavery in history and the cost of freedom, she asked, “wow. Really? Mamam, were you alive in the 1800s?” The conversation was spurred from last night’s school timeline project. Emma had to research an African American who has greatly impacted our nation. She chose someone from history, so I suggested Harriet Tubman, the “Moses of her People”. At first, it would have been nice to have chosen someone from the science or entertainment field but there’s something deep within the pages of history. I wanted her to know more about the Underground Railroad and ways the slaves used to escape and why they escaped. That’s really the crux of the matter isn’t it? Freedom. The cost of freedom. I want her to realize that freedom isn’t everywhere. Even in the 2000s, people are still in metaphoric shackles struggling to be free.
Zi: I dreamt of the kids last night, mamam.Me: what kids?Zi: you remember, last night? You told us about the kids. ***flashback the night before when I told them that our family’s new year’s resolution would be to help out people more who have no homes, no food, no beds even in the winter…***Me: Oh! What was your dream about the kids?Zi: I gave them blankets, and coats. I gave them food so they were happy. And when they got sleepy, I gave them a nice pillow.
So last night, Emma was a bit silent before bedtime, and Zi was already sleeping. I asked Em about her pensiveness and she said “I’m thinking about Zi.” She explained that she was sad upon thinking of the time when Zi would “be big like Mama and she will have a baby. She will have a new family and will leave me.” Wow. I was floored that such far sighted thoughts resided in my four year old’s head. I honestly didn’t know how to answer such a sensitive topic, yet remain as honest and mature as possible. You see, ever since we found out we were pregnant, Emma has stayed so close to her younger sister, being surprisingly nurturing, giving, and loving. Sometimes, she even asks Perze if he misses his Mama and Tatay (dad), consoling him by saying we’ll take a plane to the Philippines to visit them. I guess she picked up on the reality that sometimes you leave your old family when you get married and have a new family. So I told her, even if Zi will have a new family when she becomes a Mama, her old family will never change and will always be […]
Some videos of our beloved Zienne: 1. Milestone: Rolling Over: A couple of days ago, she started rolling over, first to her left, then to her right. Right then, I realized that she’s going mobile, so I video-ed her milestone. At two months, beating her sister’s record, Zi is a roller. 2. Chatty Zi: Earlier this month, Zi also started baby chatting, when she can carry a conversation with people who get her attention (eye contact). She smiles and coos, letting you have her attention for quite some time. It’s always a joy during those moments when we can carry a conversation several times in a day. ps. you can hear Ate in the background (or major foreground) taking part of the conversation. =) she absolutely LOVES her little sister.
E: What happens when I grow up? When I become a mama? M: You’ll be a mama to a baby and I will be a lola. E: No, you’ll be a mama. M: Yes, your mama, but the baby’ lola. I’ll always be your mama. E: Don’t worry, I won’t grow up too fast, Mamam. M: I very much hope so, baby.