despite having PreBASIC, and all those late meetings, and all the phone calls to follow up, i’ve been so nervous every time i log onto the BASIC site…we have a counter that has a number diminish everyday until that day- AUGUST 16. i guess anyone who plans an event gets this way. you always want it to go a certain route, and always expect success, and usually, I have a burden to set events up…like parties, celebrations, meetings, events, projects…i realize that i’ve been given this gift in my personality and i really can’t deny it, or stop it…thoughts pour even in the shower. i’m just glad i have a team to work with for BASIC. without them, my vision dies. with them we’ve made it our vision. their sweat equals mine, and my troubles are passed on to them…and i love the homeostatic flow of our responsibilities…of course sometimes we get discouraged and a little backed up on our follow through, but all in all, i praise God for their dedication. and i’m glad that i learned this years ago through experience- that no matter how much you plan, God can manage to change it all for His glory, […]
this weekend was amazing. God overflows in blessings. My heart reached such happy heights. i was about to sleep when a friend called me up to talk about BASIC. we just shared to each other how faithful God was that night…and how prayer was so integral in its preparation. The one thing i will take from BASIC- how God calls so sweetly His children to pray…most of the time we think that we go to God when we want to talk to Him, but did you know that God can call His children to prayer? It’s this feeling of longing- a yearning so sweet, you can only satisfy by uttering all your present thoughts to Him. How sweet to think that God tugs at our hearts when He wants to spend time with us. “marchesa, talk to me…” wow. -“something bout the ocean and i’m lost in love again” anyways, i continued talking to this friend of mine, and his words were such an encouragement to me. you know when someone says something about you that you don’t want to hear, but in the same time is so encouraging? He also challenged me tonite…hahaha and asked me straight up questions […]
i dunno how to write about BASIC, so i’ll include a desperate prayer i wrote 2 weeks before BASIC. “Lord, BASIC. You have a plan for BASIC. You are calling people to you even as I write you this request. You already know who is coming. Your glory is set. But God, i don’t know what’s gonna happen. I could be planning for an empty room, all i know is that I have to plan. But I know You want glory- i know you want hearts to turn to You. I know You can’t wait until You can search throughout the room and take what is Yours. Father, the beauty of my limited vision is nothing except the mere orchestrating of the slow revelation of Your power and faithfulness. It is my faith that is tested and it may just be my secret victory, but i know there will be a myriad blessings that will overflow.” amen. how God answered that prayer is amazing.
days have been busy but God still makes time for God :). mel and i was praying for vision today, and when i went downstairs to the computer, i kept looking at the BASIC flyer. I just kept staring at it, thinking about what God wants, thinking about how to maximize the nite. I know i can only do so much that the senses will take in, but it’s God who weaves in the heart. but i want to do my end of God’s vision. This has been my prayer these days, that God will show me what He wants. I want to dream big, even for a small church. I need to expect great things…the greater the risk in faith, the greater His glory in faithfulness, all according to His will. After this busy week, it’s time to sit down, rest, then mobilize.
today, i woke up at 7am, grabbed my Bible, guitar, & banig- & set out 4 my backyard. the grass was wet but i laid out my straw blanket anyways. today was our first Early Morning Prayer Meeting. i remember many groups in Rutgers used 2 be sooo devoted 2 prayer, that they even got up around 6am 2 pray…i wanted 2 bring the same devotion 2 SJ. I know it`s hard 2 sacrifice sleep but i`m really praiseful that 4 people came 2 the mat 2 pray, maybe even more in their own rooms, but it was a refreshing time. basically, we prayed 4 the people in our youth group. we prayed 4 individual names. i want us 2 learn how 2 be more invested in each other through prayer, not so we change their lives just because we uttered their names, & that the power was through our words, but so that we may learn how 2 care 4 their needs in lifting up their burdens; & it is our faith in which we grow closer 2 our intimacy with the Father. how great 2 pray in the confines of secrecy but how sweet 2 pray with your […]