Untitled (written 2004) i remember the rain and my mandrake root past 18 and ready to fly not knowing the degree of the wind nor the love lingering behind the trees waiting for opportunity waiting for me i remember the sound of a hand slipping away so outside my window visitors tap tap against my window but i hardly let them come in whisper, they to me see     how we         are            still here.

untitled (written 2002) you have granted what i’ve never expected asked, i’ve never requested but granted it came hands of time and Your hand’s all the same my shame, my blame was always my faith i’ve complained under my breath when you knew all along the truth that my best was in You. the truth was in You. my vision is short sighted i was never delighted, my fight was that i could not get past the next corner, next night, next height i sighed below mountains and lingered in valleys, looking up on impossibilities, on realities revoking Your past miraculous merciful mysteries my praise became dull obligatory lulls for my own comfort in full they exited my mouth, down they dropped propped up, then fell south they only reached the depth of my doubt but You’ve shown me my folly if only i dealt with my pride, solely inside if only i trusted, and abided, guided by your mercy and set me free You would lift me, and i could dance forever in the river advance to You, my redemption, salvation, You, in You, my soul’s satisfaction.

revised (written 2005. dedicated to my emmanuelle) i am revised by you for you will do what i could not do i will give you the half that will hold you one hundred percent i am amazed by you because you are what i cannot see now and every tomorrow and your mystery is what amazes me you are promise you are love manifested you are the joy i have yet to see and every day God gives you to be i will slowly see each revision of me… —————————————————— i love you my angel.

…to feel (written 0106.03) somehow amidst the snow capped grass a blade shivers more than the rest while others chide it saying this is how it is supposed to be this is how it’s always been denying the frost on their skin as snow fades slowly away to the spring and ushers the unwavering heat of summer this blade of grass grows more weary than the rest while others chide it saying this is how it is supposed to be this is how it’s always been denying the scorching heat on their skin unable to understand the blade, in reprimand, looks up to the mighty tree and asks why suffering sometimes becomes too real the mighty tree smiles down on that one blade and says "you’re quite extraordinary from the rest…for at least you are able to feel." ————————————————————————————————– Lord, there are things i can’t change…things i will just have to go through…use it to show me something. snow is beautiful. it is like a vertical shadow.

sometimes love is not so apparent. sometimes it’s as subtle as every new morning. as miraculous and magnanimous as it is, our tendency is to lose our wonder because we think it will always be there. give love its due. and acknowledge it daily esp. where it is the hardest to find.  

messed up again :: song ches110502 i am holding my heart today there is no other way for me to say but i think i’ve messed up again i dont’ know why i can’t let go of the past that passed away i’ve been holding my breath to ten Lord, i think i’ve messed up again i’ve given it you i thot it would never come around this time the pain, the pain that once consumed this heart of mine i’ve laid it down to you but sometimes i can hear it from behind will you ease my heart take me apart and just hold me in your love guess the cycle will never die guess i’ll have to confront it time to time and maybe i’ll never know why when my spirit grows so weak be the comfort that i seek my sight seems to self-deceive so i need You to look out for me i’ve been talking to lots of people and it seems "residual" is the word of the week.  there are lots of things we want to get rid of, but sometimes we just can’t…at least, not for the time being.  there are feelings from the […]

Been Meaning to Say Hello (written 2001) Well I’ve been meaning to call you for while I’ve been meaning to I’ve been meaning to say hello and smile but the feelings seem to shy away when i see you come along my way All I end up saying is hey I’ve been meaning to get out those words That I’ve reserved to be left unheard I’ve surrendered to time but the moment has passed me by And when you ask me all I can say is I’m fine It’s not often believe me, it just comes and goes this feeling to say hello Maybe it’s lunar influenced or maybe seventh sense but I’m wonderin’ bout you tonite I guess there’s something that’s left to be said that’s right in my head but the words can’t seem to come along so I’ll just have to settle by saying it In a song   Technorati Tags: hello,poem,2001