In Emma’s heart is a gigantic room for Zienne. She took time, on her own volition, to teach her little sister how to tie shoe laces. As the little sister, zi always welcomes new knowledge from her older sister. If it was me trying to teach Zienne, she’d already lose patience and tell me she knows how to tie the laces, but with her Ate Emma, she’ll sit and observe. I love capturing moments like this, stealing them from time before they vanish.
Summer days, slowly dwindling to a stop. I’m not ready for the busyness of fall & multiple schedules. Also not ready for Zi to go into PreK. This morning, as I crawled into their twin sized bed, sandwiched between their two sinuous still half asleep little bodies, I asked Zi if she was ready to go to PreK in a couple of weeks. She said, “yes.” Emma chimed, “even without Ate in your bus?” “Even without Ate in my bus.” I was afraid to ask her, “even without Mamam next to you?” I knew she’d brush it away and pretend to put her big girl pants on and console me that she would be fine, but then end up pondering over that reality that for a few hours every day, she had no choice but to mingle with strangers, without her mom. I always feel like I have had the least time with Zienne. Middle child syndrome. Having had Elleonai, Zi was always entrusted to Emma’s company. She had to grow up faster, graduating to sleeping in their room at an earlier age. When I had Zienne, I always promised Emma we would have quality time to spend together, talking, […]
Me: Emma, why are you crying?Emma: because Zi hurt my feelings.Me: Zienne, is there something you want to say to your Ate?*Zienne starts crying*Zi: Ate, I’m sorry. I’m really sorry!!Me: for what?Zi: for saying I’m going to leave!Me: where are you going to go? Zi: to a black hole! *cries even more* Zi: I’m really sorry, Ate!!!!! #truestory
Zi: Mamam, you’d be so proud of me.Me: really? What happened?Zi: I parcipitated.Me: oh! You participated? What did you say?Zi: that Ate was bapatized.Me: baptized? Zi: ya! I parcipitated in DVDS.
Me: Guys, start cleaning up. If I see something that’s yours and not put away, I throw it out. They are YOUR things, you need to put them away. *10 minutes later Me: Zi, can you put my laptop upstairs and charge it? Zi: Mamam, this is YOUR laptop. If it’s your laptop, you need to charge it. *mischievous smile*
Tonight during bedtime, I pop quizzed my girls on all the memory verses they’ve learned so far and the Biblical characters from the stories I’ve been telling them each week. They got the stories right, but as far as names go, I’ve gotten Samson & Delia, Davin & Golilah, Abraham Lincoln & Ninang Sarah. Also, I asked both of them if they wanted to be baptized, and Emma quickly said she really wanted to be baptized after I told her what it meant. She said she remembered last year, during the retreat, seeing people baptized by Pastor Ding. Then they both went on saying why they wanted to be baptized. I reminded them that I don’t want them to do it for me, to please me so I would be proud of them, because I already am proud of who they are. But they are so eager to follow Christ through baptism, so I told them they’ll have to discuss it with Pastor Ding. I’m such a sap every year when I see people get baptized during the retreats…sometimes even crying when I see the youth get baptized, how much more my own children? I would have to keep such […]
Emma: when you exercise, your heart beats faster because the heart has to pump more blood to your body. If you hold your breath, your heart slows down and if you don’t breath, your heart stops beating. Zi: Ya! And if you go to sleep, your heart slows down because it doesn’t have to pump blood anymore because you’re not exercising. So when you wake up, your heart is slow again.