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Month: April 2013

taking back my wishes

Sometimes I remind myself that soon, she’ll be one, then one and a half, then two, and then I can finally get real sleep- the kind of sleep that offers me to dream and have 2am conversations with Perze again. Then I realize by that time, I won’t have a baby to hold anymore, that baby that pants to get near to me, that baby that crawls with all her strength and coordination just to be in my arms, smiling, excited with an innocent glow and glee that melts my heart.  Then I get sad and look at her and take my wishes back. I’m ok without sleep. Because I can sleep for eternity but I’ll never have her baby smell with each day that passes. So I look at her with each time I have with her when she’s not crying or cranky, and I play with her, make her smile, talk with her, and hug her.  Sometimes, she pulls away because I’m overcompensating with what I won’t have in the future- a baby. She doesn’t realize how much I’ll miss her- the baby years of her- and I know I’ll cherish the next phases of her life, but […]

Happy Birthday, Mama Ruth

Happy birthday to the most selfless woman I know- my mom. Ruth Fabila. She has taken it to a whole new incredible level when I saw how she sat, cried, prayed for my dad by his hospital bed last week, and now, how she continues to act in love by taking care of his every need as he recovers, despite her fatigue and pain.  I love you, Ma. I’m proud to be your daughter and blessed that my own daughters have you as an example to look up to the rest of their lives. Happy birthday, Ma.

Happy Birthday Perze!!

Happy 38th birthday to my beloved, Perze! In behalf of our girls, I want to thank you for being such a great, involved, loving, doting, encouraging dad- one who believes and nurtures your daughters to be the best they can be, to achieve what they put their minds to, and to introduce things they have yet to understand and learn! Most of all, thank you for always bringing our family to the feet of Jesus through prayer, with integrity and constant example to guide our family to live by faith. Yesterday, you told me that you’ve loved me and shared 10 birthdays with me. And in all those years, I’ve seen how you’ve clung to God’s goodness, striving to live by His will, and each year, I’ve seen Him add His blessings upon you.  Not that everything has been easy and everything given, but you’ve chosen to always trust Him in every season of our lives.  I’m so proud of you, mahal. Please know how much we appreciate all the things you do, all the sacrifices you consciously undertake, just for our benefit, for our comfort, for our happiness. You may think it doesn’t show, but it does.  We see […]

my dad’s heart bypass surgery

“This is the day the Lord has made; We will rejoice and be glad in it.” Psalm 118:24To God be the glory for a successful quadruple heart bypass. The doctor admitted that had he gotten checked any later, his chances for a heart attack would have been at any moment, thus the immediate need for the bypass the same week. Praise God for a recommended surgeon/team and a family friend from church who aided in the surgery.  Papa was strong during the procedure and is resting now. Please pray for his full recovery!  In behalf of our family, we’re genuinely thankful for extended family and friends who have lifted him up in prayer and encouraged us through it all, even his young grandchildren who unceasingly prayed for him.

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I never doubt God’s goodness. I just doubt my capacity to understand.

One Month from March 2, 2013: A Video

There’s a line in the song that goes, “no doubt in my mind where you belong.”  While I was watching them on their wedding day, I couldn’t help but see how matched these two are, how she compliments him, how he fills where she is missing.   Today is their first month anniversary.  And although they didn’t hire a videographer. And although I am not at all close to being a professional with these things. And although I only used my iPhone, some videos, peoples’ pictures, and two days. And although I wish it could be better, I wanted to share a little of what happened March 2, 2013.    Happy 1 month Anniversary Mike and Kris.  We love you and promise to lift you up in prayer every 2nd of the month.

Happy 7 Months Elle

Before you turned 7 months, you mastered getting yourself to sit independently. You learned how to crawl and go from one room to another. You learned how to pull yourself up to stand. And you’re now cruising a little and even letting go and standing on your own for seconds at a time. After you do this, you have a huge smile on your face because you know you’ve accomplished something. You also started separation anxiety, esp. When we walk put of the room. Whenever you hear music, you start to sway or “beat the drum.”