So it’s month 5 and I’ve gained 5 lbs. total. Pretty good so far…I’ve gained my appetite back, but I’m still not eating as much as I thought I would, like I did with Emma- like a beast that’s been on Atkins. But I’m sure it’ll come; I mean, I do have 4 more months left. So, for those who want to see me fat, here’s a nice little treat- 0 cals, from me to you: So far, Baby Z kicks a lot now, mostly during the night, like Emma used to do. I think this time around, the baby will be a little bigger than his/her Ate because I remember the doctors being concerned about Em’s size and weight. But they do say that the second baby is easier to push out during delivery (I won’t go into details)…so I’m putting in my order already for that Turkey sub that I can’t eat during my pregnancy, and add a Monte Cristo on the side :-). For those interested, there are more pictures posted on our Photo Gallery: 2008-2009 40 Weeks
love (written 2005 | dedicated to my beloved husband) love cannot break it constantly moves like fire like water not a stone or a boulder but it is a foundation that must be built upon not follow the weather and survive when novelty’s gone it is a dance with no need for music no steps, unrehearsed not coy, sans pretense in its barest, at its best but it captivates at its loudest and grows intimate in the most silent it can stand alone without equation it is love when language ceases when each letter of love decreases and when love lingers after my last breath you’ll know that i had loved and that i had loved my best
a witnessed memory (written 2003) We were young so in love I blinked once You finished by introducing yourself To just simple plain me You said hello Took my hand And smiled and all the stars that night Shone so bright applauded the time fashioned by God and looked down to bless your smile I never knew Neither did you Who would have thought That we had become a scene for the stars To sigh, applauding this time had come You visited me I fed you a line Never knowing that finally we’ve come After all of that time We’ve been gone from each other then was the perfect time Unexpected, unassuming, un-trying too hard un-doing the way people do things to try to know heart by heart Everything to rush the feelings inside You called me up I wrote you a song we said goodbye, with me… humming a tune to myself so sweet, the one that you sang to me I went to sleep and for the first time woke up, and got on my knees to pray for you, for you day for your life for God to bless your smile.
Untitled (written 2002) I fell for you like a petal off a rose from the bloom to the floor so quietly I glided down and hit the ground looking up. like a floral cup.
reciprocated equations (written 2004) when one meets one they equal two one brings all of its entity of one and one brings all of its entity of one for if one does not bring itself entirely it is doomed of its own integrity and when they come together cannot equal a whole when one meets one they equal two but only upon arrival and there must be a bond to keep the two together there must be a meeting one honors one and vice versa to equal two
something in the way You say You love me (written 2004) there is something in the way you say you love me You say it and it resounds in the oceans mighty and unrestrained crashing and moving everything that is in its way there is something in the way you say you love me You say it And it’s painted in the sunset complicated in its color majestic in magnanimity melting all the brashness and calling things to rest there is something in the way you say you love me You say it and you capture me in silence in the times we hold together convicting over my stubborness loving until I understand it- that you love me beyond words and love beyond my definition with love that surpasses my understanding and love that covers every satisfaction
the difference between you and me (written 2004) there’s a structure in everything you do even in the way you move tactical, practical not wasting a step nor wasting my gaze you are a function an equation that always makes sense in the end and i’m left gaping in my words this opposite of me and i am seen only as a description of this form in you