… I flinch.

When I flinch I don’t hide it really well. We went to the radiologist yesterday to hopefully find out what Baby Z’s sex was but the baby was being stubborn. I got upset from the inside, but I didn’t really hide that pretty well because Marchesa saw the reaction in my face as if she was reading a comic book.

I honestly got sad. Made me wish that I shouldn’t have expected anything. Would have been nice if there was a definite answer, is it a boy? A girl? I wasn’t ready for … Uncertainty.

I honestly can’t wait until this baby gets here, five months feels too far away.