2006 Christmas

Author: No Comments Share:

it’s been a lot of eating…each year the number of presents gets bigger…but for some reason, upon being asked what one wants for christmas, the answer’s always, “don’t spend too much…” as you get older, it does feel better to give than to receive.  this christmas, i was waiting for my family to open their gifts instead of wanting to open mine.  after church and A*Bay, our family waited for our late lobster dinner.  we have this weird tradition now of ordering live lobsters for our christmas dinner (thanks to my brother)…we also have this tradition of eating around 9pm-10pm so we can just enjoy company until 12am, which is when we open gifts.  we’re so strict about it too…we can never open gifts before midnight…it might be just a sign of relentless tradition or a desperate cling to innocence and childhood…nevertheless, we opened gifts at midnight.  even the babies were awake with us, playing with their presents while the fire played with the christmas music.  this was also samsam’s first christmas, and emma’s first christmas with samsam….man, i love watching them interact with each other…as the months progress, they’re more aware of each other’s budding potential for friendship and company…they really made our christmas more joyful…and they don’t even know it…

so much happened this week…a good friend came home from moving to singapore, so it feels like old days, when the group would hang out…so last week, the YA’s came over to celebrate his return, Kristie/Wendell/Icho/Rog’s birthday.  then we had A*Bay exchange gifts after the church service, which was indeed oddly interesting.  i did manage to grin acceptingly while carrying my present that broke maybe half of the rules, courtesy of mr. singapore.  the gifts given were a sweet gesture, so whoever is reading this…thanks greatly.  even emma received surprise gifts from people in the church, and we were really humbled by their thoughtfulness.

christmas day, aside from the incredibly sweet victory the eagles had over the cowboys, a close friend came to visit.  he drove all the way down just to give gifts and cake…and his company really got to me because he didn’t have to sacrifice any hours of his christmas to come and visit, but he did.  it made me remember that acts of grace are still relevant in friendships…sometimes, people just give because they’ve been given…but some people, even with the absence of receiving, just keep giving. he reminded me that even if people never give back, no matter how much you try to give to them, you just need to keep giving a little to those who accept what little you can give.  some people are naturally givers, natural helpers, and then sometimes, you’ve just got to try harder…some people think you just don’t give enough, and then there are those who forget to see how much they’ve been given…that’s why grace is so sweet…there are no measurements or keeping track, or guages or reciprocity…my friend that came over made me think of grace this season, even moreso since i’ve been reading yancey’s WSAAG…

christmas eve, before i went to bed, i read a passage from the old testament about  moses.  most people mistake moses being the speaker in behalf of God to the pharoah, but it was really Aaron.  what struck me was that out of everything that moses had to stamp his faith on, he just could not get through his speaking disability.  mountains of faith on God’s power to change water into blood, and part the sea, create disease, and yet still witheld to believe God can deliver His people through his speech.  It’s a great reminder that when i cannot give to God’s equation, from the self perspective of a defective nature, the outcome still yields greatness.  A toothpick can still be a vessel of God’s power…despite being called a toothpick.

nevertheless, the holidays aren’t over yet, and i’m waiting for things to normalize and present themselves for next year…*hmmmm…i already foresee changes for the next few months…it’s kinda tough saying goodbye to the holidays though, since you get used to the company of everyone…i already miss my sister, ksam, and samsam…they left today…

it’s a pensive christmas…but i’m growing to appreciate the quietness of the nativity scene rather than the pomp and announcement that the King was born…each year is different and i like that…

Previous Article

woo woo

Next Article

back to ministries