I had a brush with Jealousy today. She probably noticed that I was a bit dazed with what is going on in my life recently. So she stayed a while and decided to have a chat. We talked about “things”. As the conversation progressed, she tried to convince me of not waiting for things to just pan out the way God wanted them to be. She showed me the glitter of what I’d have once I succumb to her wiles. For a bit there, I must admit that I paused and thought about the short term external effects if I indeed go with her. In the middle of all that pausing and thinking, Contentment dropped by to check up on me.

I tell you Contentment has been my on and off friend. In as much I would have wanted to remain and even promised to always keep in touch, Jealousy has been the huge distracting factor. What can I say, Jealousy for some reason is more appealing when compared to Contentment. She always has more things to show than what Contentment has to offer.

The three of us had a fairly interesting conversation. Listening to the both of them ague with points and counterpoints made me see things clearly. I must admit that there was one point in our conversation that made me more confused than ever. Of course all of this is happening in my mind as I was at work, so you can just imagine how distracted I was.

Aside fromt he regular topic of PDA’s, Cars, Houses and all that sort, Jealousy brought up one particular topic that really cought my attention. I was amazed because of the fact that that topic wasn’t even remotely near my radar of consciousness. It was about Digital Audio Encoders/Mixers/Recorders. I do have my own, a Tascam Pocket Studio 5, which I hastily bought 18 months ago and haven’t really been using it that much over that period of time.

Once that topic kicked into gear, my mind just raced to look at what’s out there. I found this nifty USB Recorder, The Tascam US-122 device, which I thought was perfect. I called the dealer and asked if they have it available and discussed with him the possibility of trading in my old gear. My mind was set in getting the device before 9pm tonight.

Shortly after that decision, I got a call from my good old friend, Conscience. The wierd thing was that we had a three way conversation with Contentment. It was a heated discussion, of course I already made up my mind. I was the US-122 Digital Recorder. After we got off the phone, Contentment pulled me aside and started asking me a barrage of questions … why this, why that, remember his, remember that. I put up a good fight I tell you, but contentment for some reason got into me. she made me realize that eventhough jealousy has all these things to offer I forgot that one thing that contentment can give me.

Peace of mind.

So, there you go. I’m sticking with what I have.

Being contented means being able to exercise patience. Being patient means being able to trust that God has a better plan. So I will be contented with what I have. As what God promised to the prophet Habakkuk, “Even though the fig trees have no blossoms, and there are no grapes on the vine; even though the olive crop fails, and the fields lie empty and barren; even though the flocks die in the fields, and the cattle barns are empty, yet i will rejoice in the Lord! I will be joyful in the God of my salvation. The Sovereign Lord is my strength! He will make me as surefooted as a deer and bring me safely over the mountains.” (Hab. 3:16-19)

Jealousy just stormed out of the room. But I have a feeling she will be back.

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