an issue of trust. it’s funny these days that i’m teaching about John 15:5 to my sunday school class.  Sometimes i wonder if they see me in their shoes, that i too go through their struggles as well, to some different degree, but i hope they will acknowledge that those lessons are not quite just out of the Discipleship book, but also from my experiences.  I know sometimes they may look at me as if i don’t understand, but i do. “Yes, I am the vine; you are the branches.  Those who remain in me, and i in them, will produce much fruit.  For apart from me you can do nothing.” This reminds me most February 2002, when the FIC retreat based its theme on this passage.  I remember the whole time being there just so desperate for guidance to what God wants of me, from what path to take in what was going on with my life.  There was so much confusion in which direction i should take with so many aspects of my life and i was frustrated with where i was.  “I never seem to be content with my present surroundings, i always want more” […]

it’s funny how we always look forward to the future and end up not appreciating what we have at the present. I must say that I am guilty of this lately. But something happened over the weekend that brought me back down and really appreciated more and made me see things in a different light. the clock that determines my stay here in the US is slowly winding down and in effect really worries me and have been affecting my relationship with marchesa. but with the recent events that transpired in the past week, there seems to be a glimmer of hope. yet i realized that my hope has been set on things that don’t really matter, like my immigration status for example, i often catch myself saying, “if i just have a more stable immigration status, my life would have been better”. that particular statement/attitude shows how i misplace my trust. Prov. 3:5-6, talks about the most basic truth in the bible, Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding … it did not say Trust in the Lord with some situations … nope .. it said all, in these crazy times […]

all dressed up … with nowhere to go. Reba McIntyre would have been proud, not that I’ve heard the song nor a Reba McIntyre fan. Yesterday I blogged about the board of directors, the high and mighty, the big honcho’s, yada, yada … are coming over to our building to have their board meeting. Today was supposed to be the day. We usually have casual friday’s, you know jeans, even shorts in the summertime. Last week they announced that we have to wear business casual because the baby hueys … err, the bosses will be coming over. So, thats what everybody did. I had my regular work clothes on, longsleeves and slacks but oh boy, you won’t believe at what length others go in order to impress people who probably won’t even notice them or maybe even see them. Even the Dragon Lady (because she smokes a lot … i mean a lot) wore a dress(she only wears baggy pants), and heels too. So funny. Then she told everyone that the head honchos are not coming because of an accident in the expressway. If I probably looked carefully, I could have seen the sighs of everyone going through the air […]

Early this morning, when I got to work, I made a quick and short trip to the restroom. As I was washing my hands, two cooks from the cafeteria came in. All I hear them saying was that … “They brought their own cooks, can you believe that? Looks like our food is not good enough for them.” I looked at the two of them and then I walked out. I had no idea what they were talking about. A few hours passed, attended our team meeting. As it was about to end, one of my co-workers mentioned that the board of directors are meeting on our building. As a matter of fact, they converted the conference room into an executive meeting area. They brought in engraved long tables, executive type leather seats, their own cooks … the whole sh’bang. That’s what the cook was complaining about. Oh well, these people earn a hundred times than the normal person, they deserve the treatment right? As for those cooks that were complaining, serves you right for serving icky cafeteria food. The only good thing in that cafeteria is their Italian hoagie, but that would be history soon since Quizno’s will be […]

for a while now, i’ve been considering, moving into new jersey. last sunday, we went to visit rogie’s place i kinda concluded that i would definitely move. but now i have second thoughts. i don’t know what but I really need some kinda confirmation or assurance on this move. my immigration status is still up in the air. i kinda worked on my balance sheets and looks like i have the same expenses whether i move or not. the greatest factor has been the automobile insurance in new jersey, the state regulates it so much to the point that nobody wants to do their business anymore. i could double what i’m paying now. i was hoping i could save a bit on this move but looks like, it will just be the same. wow this is harder than i thought. i have literally a few days before i decide and turn in my discontinuance of lease document and the closer it gets, the more confused i am. here’s my list of pros and cons so far: pros — closer to marchesa closer to the church (i can be involved more in the local ministries) cheaper gas! i can mooch of […]