i woke up to many phone calls on my birthday.  the first one from my dad who went to work early.  Then my lil sis greeted me and so did my mom when she got back home.  Then i received a call from my kuya from VA. My ate called me later on.  perze came over around 12pm after work all dressed up with a shirt i picked out for him a while ago, carrying with him four dozen roses.  24 orange salmon tipped roses were for my mom [one for each year of taking care of me…that includes discipline too].  And 24 old fashioned color red looking roses for me.  After we put them in water and he wrote a note for my parents, he told my mom of his plans for the day, and we were off in his blue saturn.  it was really exciting. halfway going to philly, he admitted that he was taking me to a restaurant in Penns Landing.  It took us about an hour, and Penns Landing looked so much like King of Prussia Mall- and i could have sworn that the restaurant looked exactly like Cheesecake Factory.  Halfway through lunch, my curiosity killed the cat and […]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAHAL!

this is home. being away missing what needs to be there missing conditioned familiarity coming back opening twelvesixteen smiling not feeling far away anymore home: the point where you leave and always come back to. i’ve missed my home. i’ve missed you.

I remember a time when I was going through so much change in my life to a point that everything seems to have required change. Those changes have brought me to my knees because of the pain that has really struck to where I was most vulnerable. The grief of just merely living almost overwhelmed me to the point of deciding not to live anymore has been an option. I asked God so many questions which have not been directly unanswered yet He still continues to show me His faithfulness. At this point all my preconceived notions of who God is and should be have been destroyed. I realized that for me God was some sort of divine-good-works-slotted-vending-machine. And it took Him to let me through that kind of pain to re-establish the meaning of what He really is and how I should treat Him. As my Saviour, Friend, Sovereign and the Lord of my life. A life that he requires to be like Him, a life of holiness because He is indeed Holy. In the midst of pain, people often think that God has departed them, I certainly did. You see, our view of God is always changing, but […]

it’s just not the same. like a pool without swimmers, or a video game without the console. Or a Taylor guitar without the strings. i just miss her, i guess.

the last four weeks has been crazy …. so will the next two. it’s production time and i need to be on my toes all the time keeping up with work and stuff. I still have to publish my thoughts about basic. i don’t want to miss things so I’ll blog about it when i’m ready to blog about it. All in all, God’s grace was really evident on that day. marchesa left for canada early this morning. i did get the chance to talk to her before they left, i don’t even remember what i said because that was around 5 in the morning. I only recall, telling her how much i miss her already. she’ll be back.

for those who have taken the challenge/journey to memorize Bible verses from recommended from the book “Memorize This”…here’s the newest verses to memorize for this week…are you game?? Assurance of God’s Love “Hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us.” -Romans 5:5 “O Lord, God of Israel, there is no God like you in heaven above or on earth below- you who keep your covenant of love with your servants who continue wholeheartedly in your way.” -1 Kings 8:23 do you remember last week’s verses? Psalm 86:5 Zephaniah 3:17