leading worship a grueling chiseling of oneself. Lord, instill a fear in me when i approach to worship, for where i trod will be a Holy place, and what i seek is a Holy face. may my music come second and my words an attempt to describe, for the praise is found deeply where reverence resides.
a date with a man in uniform:: damage: expensive date so okeys, not the conventional date. shame on those who were thinking dinner and movie. actually, it was more like waiting and a sentence. [cueing the crickets:: ki ki ki ki] wha?? yup, the officer sir was implacable when i cut him off 3 months ago. it was nite time, i was picking up lil sis and friend from B&N. i was on the right lane and wanted to go to the left cuz i wasn’t making a right…so blinker on, accelerated sufficiently and fit snuggly between john doe and officer ego. it was night! who knew?? first ticket. today was my court date. what did i wear? ya, that was hard, but in honor of my new xanga skin, i wore jeans with a dark grey shirt and a sort of ashes of roses pink sweater over it. what was my date wearing? a very unfashionable black robe…[did nothing for his eyes]. but rogie, the good and faithful hot friend that he is, accompanied me as he promised months ago. this was my first time folks and well, the story is a lot funnier if i added a bit […]
my friend lheila made me smile today. i opened my ebox and this is what she sweetly sent me…it was simple, but the thot was nice, esp. since i didn’t even get to talk with her last night. 🙂 thanx lhei. the picture bout sums it up. hahahah. yesterday. i told myself to ease up on reading books for now. to listen to more pop music, dare i say it- britney spears (but no n’sync. please). and to dance more…to watch movies that just want to please the heart and not so much mind the mind. 🙂 God bless everyone, esp. my family who is traveling.
the leaves are falling… i decided to walk a little around campus before and after class, and took the long way to the car. there were hardly any people walking around the buildings where i had just finished my class so i decided to walk really slowly while admiring the trees…something i admire, cuz they seem to each have their own silent story and aesthetic personality…as strange as it may seem to personify bark and leaves, i was just curious to whether the planter realized the end product while he was designing where each specified tree should be positioned. i figured it really would have been boring of him/her to plant the same type of tree, altho i guess it would have its own placable uniformity. but for this specific day, when i decided to admire God’s creation, i felt thankful and loved that the one who planted on that field was a little more ambitious and creative to have allowed various shapes, colors, stories, and personalities. the trees were seriously refreshingly beautiful. A friend told me about stars once and i may have interpreted too personally, but i took what he said as this, “can you believe that a […]
i think i just miss RU. i miss the laughter. i miss when everyone was together. i miss praying with friends. ugh. i miss my apartment. i miss not needing a car. i miss late night serious talks with friends. i miss reading at the cafes. i know i really should be thankful for where God placed me right now. i am. really. i am. but you have those nostalgic moments, i guess. what am i really here for? to help the church with music? we have musicians who just need to step up. for the youth? i don’t make the plans. keep driving and i keep thinking about something that’s just been really coming up in my thots- what i blogged this summer. “is God just as concerned for my happiness as He is for His glory?” i question myself and demand of myself a conclusive answer, for i’ve been given a good amount of time to experience an answer. empirically, it must be yes. i’ve been listening to one song over and over again and i have yet to believe it 100%. and i struggle to believe it…yes, i know it…i know it’s empirically true, but i need […]