i dunno how to write about BASIC, so i’ll include a desperate prayer i wrote 2 weeks before BASIC. “Lord, BASIC. You have a plan for BASIC. You are calling people to you even as I write you this request. You already know who is coming. Your glory is set. But God, i don’t know what’s gonna happen. I could be planning for an empty room, all i know is that I have to plan. But I know You want glory- i know you want hearts to turn to You. I know You can’t wait until You can search throughout the room and take what is Yours. Father, the beauty of my limited vision is nothing except the mere orchestrating of the slow revelation of Your power and faithfulness. It is my faith that is tested and it may just be my secret victory, but i know there will be a myriad blessings that will overflow.” amen. how God answered that prayer is amazing.
3:20am. can’t sleep. thoughts in head. need to write. i want to go rollerblading. i need to get away. maybe just a chemical imbalance. need to slow down. need to stop thinking. maybe just caffeine induced.
work. i will write about work. one of the senior citizens i take care of passed away on sunday. made me think summore. today, one other senior citizen, my friend Martha was talking to her son on the phone and she gave me the phone to discuss her “secretary skills”…LOLS. i was laffing at her cuz her son gets upset with her for not keeping important documents and she’s a horrible filer. I disagreed with him and said she has a great filing system! She looks at her papers, then files them in her trash can. 🙂 That’s not the kewl part. She continued talking to him and she started talking about me, and she said, “if i ever had a daughter, i would have wanted her to be just like Marchesa”. 🙂 *tear* hahahehehahahwacka… 🙂 awe
God’s been breaking me these days. | Enough | All of You Is more than enough for all of me For every thirst and every need You satisfy me with Your love And all I have in You is more than enough You are my supply,My breath of life Still more awesome than I know You are my reward, Worth living for Still more awesome than I know You’re my sacrifice, my greatest pride Still more awesome than I know You’re my coming King, You’re my everything Still more awesome than I know ******************************** I realize that these days, this year, things have presented themselves to me, things i wasn’t ready for, things that tried to consume the faith i’ve been building, and things that have made me come to my knees…And i realize that my path for the future isn’t going to be as clear as i pray it’ll be because God still requires me to trust Him. It’s only this summer that God is teaching me to look at my past and realize that there’s gonna be a pattern for trusting Him. He’s painfully showing me that my days are going to be like the skies, continually moving, […]
warning:: crazy reflections:: ramifications=overkill on blogging. i taught youth today although i had some reservations in doing so. i felt so unprepared for a lesson that i was so interested in. it’s in john 17:20-24… the whole chapter is a prayer of Jesus to God the Father. This is after Jesus had already emplored His disciples to abide and remain in Him, for He was the vine, and they were the branches. Time was drawing near for His arrest and i can feel the urgency of His desire for them to understand that it is through Him that they can have Life. What secrets He longed for them to understand…knowing that they’re going to have to put everything together once He is crucified. He wanted to love them so…even in John 15…He emphasized with sweet refrain, “abide in me and I will abide in You.” Then in John 17, we see an intimate portrait of Jesus in His own prayer closet, pouring His most intimate desires to the Father…what was in this deep heart of our Savior????? Wouldn’t you want to know? Have you ever admired a person, so much so that you wished if only you could hear their […]
the grass is greener on the other side. i miss my friends in north jersey. that’s where i want to be this fall. i get so discouraged here. there’s no one to trust, no one to drive around with and talk to, no one who’ll share a barnes and nobles moment of chai, and no one who will drop pretenses during a quick lunch.
an hour and a half i got off work an hour & a 1/2 early. i felt so giddy when i got 2 my car; imagining the possibilities of a perfect weathered day. i rolled down my windows & set the digicam on my dashboard. Set to timer, i decided 2 drive down the open fields near where i worked & took random pictures of what i saw- peace. these days have been extremely tiring. something every nite 2 follow something every day. & i`ve been thinking 2 much lately…repercussion of driving. but the retreat i went on this past weekend really straightened out a lot of questions i had, & it became a time when God just pulled me out of some of my internal madness. things have yet still to iron themselves out, but i`m learning more & more of God`s desire 2 let me know His plans 4 me… ______________________________________ things that got made me smile this week: – browsing through the Hallmark card section. – coming out of the Barnes and Nobles having bought a book- “Ruthless Trust” – getting off work an hour and a half early, which gave me opportunity to drive [window down, […]